cuz momi shane and sis bj...hehe...la lng...post lng nq...

The First Time I truly loved a man

I was 11 years old when I first loved a man. I’m in grade 6 at that time. It’s good in the feeling because it’s my first time. Of course, I was curious that’s why I tried it. It felt good. Well, I’ll describe him. His complexion is white and he’s intelligent and handsome. Sometimes, he’s kind. I met him when we were in grade 4 because I was a transferee in their school and fortunately, he was my classmate. When we were in grade 5, we were not in the same section. When we were finally in grade 6, we were friends, but not that close. I knew that he had a girlfriend during the last quarter of the school year. I was very shocked when I knew it. Until after a few days, they broke up. Then he started to text at me. At that time, I didn’t feel anything for him but the tie came that he courted me, exactly last March 9, 2006. I asked him about the girl and he and he said that they already broke up. When March 11, 2006 came, I asked him, “What do you want me to answer?”. And he said, “YES!!”. So I said “Okay. But promise me that you’ll be faithful.” For me, that was the happiest moment in my life. But the happiness was just temporary. We just lasted for 2 months. It’s because I knew that he’d been with his ex-girlfriend in the church near our house. After that, I immediately told him that I’m breaking up with him. And I was hurt of his reply. But I didn’t cry because I don’t like to cry just because of a guy. But I’ll admit that I was hurt, very hurt. You know, it’s almost a year and I have to move on and forget him. Anyway, I’m already happy with my life. The bad thing with him was that, he’s not hanging out with me because he was with his friends, playing computer. I remembered, the day after our graduation, it was my birthday. We planned already to eat at Jonie’s in SM with my cousin, Anne Mae. But after a few minutes, he changed his mind. He said that he’ll not be going because he’ll be going with her friends to the Family Park. I had nothing to do. It’s his decision. But I don’t care. The important was, I’m with my cousin. I’m still happy. Honestly, he was not that important. He would rather go with his friends than me. So what!? Well, I’m not mad at him anymore. It’s just that, he didn’t respect me as a girl. Maybe right now, he is still single because of that trait he has. Maybe, karma is with him already. It’s because he is a chicks’ boy. Maybe at that time, I was not the only one he’s with. Maybe there are two or more. It’s okay. Nothing to worry about. It was just a game for me. I hope it was, for him, too. Because, I didn’t take him seriously because he didn’t, too.